Countdown to Freedom

I know that I have not been writing lately because I have been adjusting my life... Lots of things happened and now, I am waiting for something else to happen. From this day forward, I will count the days of being together with someone... Next year, everything will be back to what it used to be... I will be officially single again and he will be with his loving wife... I know it might sound so crazy as to why I am here in this relationship but I know that this is what I need right now... To accept the fact that we will no longer be together anymore... And I have no one to run to... For the next months, I will be writing and hope that it will help me move on....

Yesterday, I was thinking of the things that happened to me... I moved out of work because I am so tired of the work, then I got a job and then I moved out again... I have promised a lot of things and I disappoint them... Sometimes I wonder as to why I have been so ambitious from the very start.. I grew up with all the things that I want in my hand... All the luxuries and things I want, before I can have them, but now, I have nothing... I do not own any of the luxuries I had before... I can say I blame my parents with that because they have me go to a school that is for the rich, I grew up thinking that all things in life are just a few meters away from me... I did not grew up as an independent child but I grew up with people with a lot of ambition... I know that right now, it is not what I need and not the personality that I am... maybe it's peer pressure, maybe it's my mind setting that I need these things.. I don't know... it's time for me to look back and think of the things that I need to straighten... I need to focus more on bringing back the trust of my family and friends because it will just be a matter of time that I will go back to them for support and strength... Maybe God gave me this situation for me to really think the worth of my life, my family and friends... Hope that I can surpass this situation...