the one about loneliness

Have you ever felt that you were longing for someone to share your life with? Have you ever dreamed that someday, someone will be able to accept you and be able to say that "this is the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with..." Have you ever experienced loving someone even though he or she doesn't love you as much as you do? Will you be able to conquer that feeling of rejection and be alone for the time being? Will you be able to say proudly that you loved him/her and it was not your lost, but his? Tell me have you been lonely?



I was trying to watch this series about a guy pretending to be gay for him to be with his love and it caught my attention. It made me think if there are still these kind of men that can actually do this for their love. I am not envious or being melodramatic. It is just that there are some things in this world that can be a fantasy turned reality and vice versa. It just made me think if I had experienced that kind. I have been in love for several times already and I know what it feels like to be loved and doing things for love, but do you think it's worth it? I have been in love for several times, but the efforts are not enough for the relationship to stay. I have been with a lot of men and I know that there would come a time that they will be looking for another person to share their life with. Maybe not all men are like this but I know that the men that I loved have all become like this.. (except for one, until now he doesn't have a girlfriend). But I am grateful to every one of them because they shared their feelings to me... I am not bitter, I would just like to thank them for making me who I am today, from the first to the last. Though right now I am single, I think this is what God wants me to be. Although I know that there would come a time that I will be looking for a companion to share my life with, I know that when the time comes He will give it to me. I am not looking for someone right now, all I wanted to do right now is to set things straight and enjoy the moments while I can. Though I am alone and lonely, I know that there would come a time that someone will be filling in my loneliness... I know, I believe and I will have faith.



Again, I am not being melodramatic and all, but I just wanted to say that sometimes being alone and lonely will fill you up and you will be satisfied with the end results. It doesn't hurt to relax, meditate and feel the silence in your hearts. Time will come, you will be looking for that moment where you should have not disregarded the silence and loneliness because you need to search for yourself again

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