the one about childhood

Yesterday, I was staring at this kid and was trying to figure out what she was doing. She was holding a plastic with eggs in it and was gloomy. I tried to approach her and asked what was her problem, she then replied, "Nawala ko ung sukli ni sa pagbili ko ng itlog, 20 pesos yun, binalikan ko na ung tindahan pero wala naman silang nakita". I tried to cheer up the kid and was trying to hand over a 20 peso bill and I said that she can use the money so that she will not be reprimanded by her mother. You know what she told me, "Hindi ko po matatanggap yan, kasi po sa inyo yan, di niyo naman po ako kilala, di ko rin naman po kayo kilala, achaka, kung kukunin ko yan at ipapakita kay Mama, parang niloloko ko na nun siya, ayoko po nung ganon, siguro sasabihin ko na lang kay Mama ung totoo, alam ko naman na mapapatawad niya ako at magiging okay din lahat, mapapagalitan man ako, at least wala akong tinatago sa kanya" I got moved by the words of the kid and she suddenly said "Ang bait niyo naman ate, alam ko kailangan niyo rin yang pera, pero alam ko naman na mabait kayo, kaya kinakausap ko kayo, sabi kasi ni Mama, wag kakausap sa hindi kilala, Salamat po" I walked and then went home thinking of the words that the kid said.



I was thinking that when we were kids, all we ever think about is play, study, eat and have fun... There are no major problems that occur to us and we don't think of bills, expenses, payments and job... It was such a nice feeling to think of what you were when you were a little kid, going to school, go home, eat, play, study, watch TV, sleep and face another day with the same routine... It was always like that and we got tired of doing it, but now, all you ever wanted is to do the same all over again. We want to remove the worries in our hearts and just want to enjoy life. It will make us think clearly and see things clearly as well... Have you ever experienced that time when all you ever wanted is to go home, change your clothes, eat the food that you mom cooked for you, and then sleep the night away, without thinking of the things that happened in your day... How I wish that everyone can do this for us to think clearly and act the way we were supposed to...



Going back to the words of the kid, it made me think of relationships... The perception of the kid not wanting to deceive the parent is a striking sentence. Not wanting to hurt the feelings of the mother and removing the burden that might be with her for the rest of the day, how did she thought of that. I think that the kid was trying to tell me that I should be free from worry and accept everything that comes my way... It made me gain confidence that I can do it and everything will be fine in the end... Hope that kid will have the same perception in the coming years of her life...



With this, I will leave a question for the readers, have you ever been like the kid these past few days?

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