Monday, November 21, 2011
Past year
I haven't been writing for the past year due to some busy schedule given by work and some personal issues that needs to be resolved. Now, I am starting to write again due to the fact that I am again jobless person wanting to scream out my feelings and emotions. Nonetheless, I will be writing soon for more, but for the mean time, I just need to finish up some business and then I will get back to all of you.
Monday, November 22, 2010
Opinion
There are a lot of foreign countries who are studying English nowadays. They are looking for competitive English instructor at a cheaper cost. The reason for studying is either for business, for college applications, job interviews, or just for them to learn the universal language. There are a lot of people teaching English, but right now, the most popular destination for learning English in a cheaper cost is the Philippines and the popular students are Koreans...
Why would the Koreans want to learn English in the Philippines or would like to have a Filipino teacher? Well, I have tried asking the other students that I have talked to and they told several things... Major reason is the cost... Learning English with a Filipino teacher is very cheap to them and they can really afford the fee... Next reason is that they understand Filipinos better. They are not really affected by the rumors that the Filipinos are bad English speakers.. Most of them like talking to Filipinos better than other people (no offense on the other nationalities). They say that other English speaking people have the tendency to stutter and murmur words that they cannot understand and there are words that are too deep to absorb... So there are the 2 major reasons of the Koreans...
In Korean culture, when you are a foreigner, you have to learn their language so that you can talk to them. You have to be the one adjusting in their culture for you to be able to understand them. This is the reason why they really have no English subject because they really don't need it.. But when recession hits the entire globe, most Koreans are looking for jobs abroad and now they need to study English... That is also the reason as to why learning English to them is a big hit now and a big employment to other English speaking country that can teach them the language.
Most Koreans are learning pronunciation, grammar, vocabulary and listening skills in English... These are the basic lessons that they are taking... In this way, they will be able to somehow understand persons who speak English and be able to start a conversation with them.. Koreans are very good students because they really work hard in learning and you will be able to see their eagerness in studying English...
Why would the Koreans want to learn English in the Philippines or would like to have a Filipino teacher? Well, I have tried asking the other students that I have talked to and they told several things... Major reason is the cost... Learning English with a Filipino teacher is very cheap to them and they can really afford the fee... Next reason is that they understand Filipinos better. They are not really affected by the rumors that the Filipinos are bad English speakers.. Most of them like talking to Filipinos better than other people (no offense on the other nationalities). They say that other English speaking people have the tendency to stutter and murmur words that they cannot understand and there are words that are too deep to absorb... So there are the 2 major reasons of the Koreans...
In Korean culture, when you are a foreigner, you have to learn their language so that you can talk to them. You have to be the one adjusting in their culture for you to be able to understand them. This is the reason why they really have no English subject because they really don't need it.. But when recession hits the entire globe, most Koreans are looking for jobs abroad and now they need to study English... That is also the reason as to why learning English to them is a big hit now and a big employment to other English speaking country that can teach them the language.
Most Koreans are learning pronunciation, grammar, vocabulary and listening skills in English... These are the basic lessons that they are taking... In this way, they will be able to somehow understand persons who speak English and be able to start a conversation with them.. Koreans are very good students because they really work hard in learning and you will be able to see their eagerness in studying English...
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Fear
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.. Your playing small does not serve the world that there is nothing enlightened about shrinking, so that other people won't feel insecure around you.. We were all meant to shine as children do.. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone... And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same as we are liberated from our own fear.. Our presence automatically liberates others.. - -Timo Cruz, Coach Carter
Everyone has its own fear, whether it is darkness or heights, being alone, being left out, fear of failure, fear of driving, fear of talking with strangers etc... The most powerful thing to conquer the fear is to face and accept the fact that we need to overcome that fear and be able to tell ourselves that we have tried it... As the excerpt above said, our deepest fear is we are powerful beyond measure... Everyone has its fears and we know that time will come we will be able to surmount that fear and will be able to continue on with life. We have intelligence in which we know that we can overcome everything if we would be bold enough to face it... What is there to fear when we know that everything is just an emotion, action, natural occurrence, a state of being or a thing that we need to experience. If we let the fear eat up our own self, what would we become? Will we be the kind of person that is afraid of taking risks? Will we become losers because we were not able to surmount that fear? Will we just stay in our own state and pretend that nothing ever happened? What if the only thing that you need to do is the fear that you have always dreaded? Will you let it pass? Or will you face it and take the risk? Sometimes, we will think of the situation first and then decide. Well, I don't blame you for that, but think about it, as the saying goes, opportunity knocks only once... What will you do?
According to wikipedia.org "Fear is an emotional response to a perceived threat. It is a basic survival mechanism occurring in response to a specific stimulus, such as pain or the threat of danger." Pain or threat of danger, we know that this part of the sentence makes us fear more. Pain is inevitable, threat of danger is sometimes unexpected but what is there to fear? The fear that we might die? The fear that we will be mocked? Why should we fear the anticipated when we can plan to face it. Sometimes I wonder why do we need to be afraid of things, maybe because we are afraid of losing or just maybe we are afraid that we are coward.. Think about it, just when you are afraid to face the facts, it might be the best thing that could ever happen to you. It is just a matter of deciding what is best for you.. Sounds contradicting? Think about it...
Everyone has its own fear, whether it is darkness or heights, being alone, being left out, fear of failure, fear of driving, fear of talking with strangers etc... The most powerful thing to conquer the fear is to face and accept the fact that we need to overcome that fear and be able to tell ourselves that we have tried it... As the excerpt above said, our deepest fear is we are powerful beyond measure... Everyone has its fears and we know that time will come we will be able to surmount that fear and will be able to continue on with life. We have intelligence in which we know that we can overcome everything if we would be bold enough to face it... What is there to fear when we know that everything is just an emotion, action, natural occurrence, a state of being or a thing that we need to experience. If we let the fear eat up our own self, what would we become? Will we be the kind of person that is afraid of taking risks? Will we become losers because we were not able to surmount that fear? Will we just stay in our own state and pretend that nothing ever happened? What if the only thing that you need to do is the fear that you have always dreaded? Will you let it pass? Or will you face it and take the risk? Sometimes, we will think of the situation first and then decide. Well, I don't blame you for that, but think about it, as the saying goes, opportunity knocks only once... What will you do?
According to wikipedia.org "Fear is an emotional response to a perceived threat. It is a basic survival mechanism occurring in response to a specific stimulus, such as pain or the threat of danger." Pain or threat of danger, we know that this part of the sentence makes us fear more. Pain is inevitable, threat of danger is sometimes unexpected but what is there to fear? The fear that we might die? The fear that we will be mocked? Why should we fear the anticipated when we can plan to face it. Sometimes I wonder why do we need to be afraid of things, maybe because we are afraid of losing or just maybe we are afraid that we are coward.. Think about it, just when you are afraid to face the facts, it might be the best thing that could ever happen to you. It is just a matter of deciding what is best for you.. Sounds contradicting? Think about it...
Thursday, November 11, 2010
the one about moving on
"When the romance is gone, it's time to move on..." - Genevieve, I Hate Valentine's Day
Hearing this sentence makes me realize if this was true, then I would have no problems in relationships... If you think that the romance has been gone, then move on and look for another romance... But we have been so covered with the facts that if you love someone, you have to accept the facts in him... You have to accept his flaws and faults and still continue to love him, but when do we actually know when to move on? Is it when we think that it is not working anymore? Is it when we see someone more attractive or more romantic than our current relationship? Is it when we start to realize that we cannot stand anymore the faults of the person? When can we actually say that it is time to move on?
As I have said before, I have been with so many relationships in my life and I can no longer count as to how many are them, but I can still count as to which are very serious... To be honest, I am not the type of person who counts the lovers I had but if I were to ask as to how many serious relationships I had, I can say there are 4... 4 failed relationships... and lots of frustrated relationships... These 4 guys have made me feel the romance and all, but is it all worth it? Can I say that I am an expert in relationships? Apparently not, I am not that good when it comes to it... I know that some of my friends come to me for advice and I can give them the advice they want... If you are asking me as to where I get the advices, I can say that they are a no-brainer... Everyone knows what to do with a certain problem, it is just a matter of acceptance... I also have a problem accepting the facts but I know what to do in a relationship... If you are already in that situation, it is hard to do the right thing because we are left clinging to the fantasy brought by the relationship... So how can you actually say that it is time to move on? When will be the time to let go?
For the 4 failed relationship, only one has a big influence in my life... the 2 failed relationships have the same reason, and the other is just because he is younger than me... The influential relationship to me has been gone for 5 years now and I can say that until now, I love him... I moved on and let go, but why does the feeling still exist? Maybe because I imagined myself with him for the rest of my life. Maybe because he was the one who changed my perception in life. Maybe because he sees me differently and he loves me unconditionally. Maybe because he accepted me for who I am and not for who I become... Everything ends up with a mystery as to why the feelings exist... The romance is gone, but is it really time to move on? What in this kind of situation, what would you do? Is it really time to move on?
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Hearing this sentence makes me realize if this was true, then I would have no problems in relationships... If you think that the romance has been gone, then move on and look for another romance... But we have been so covered with the facts that if you love someone, you have to accept the facts in him... You have to accept his flaws and faults and still continue to love him, but when do we actually know when to move on? Is it when we think that it is not working anymore? Is it when we see someone more attractive or more romantic than our current relationship? Is it when we start to realize that we cannot stand anymore the faults of the person? When can we actually say that it is time to move on?
As I have said before, I have been with so many relationships in my life and I can no longer count as to how many are them, but I can still count as to which are very serious... To be honest, I am not the type of person who counts the lovers I had but if I were to ask as to how many serious relationships I had, I can say there are 4... 4 failed relationships... and lots of frustrated relationships... These 4 guys have made me feel the romance and all, but is it all worth it? Can I say that I am an expert in relationships? Apparently not, I am not that good when it comes to it... I know that some of my friends come to me for advice and I can give them the advice they want... If you are asking me as to where I get the advices, I can say that they are a no-brainer... Everyone knows what to do with a certain problem, it is just a matter of acceptance... I also have a problem accepting the facts but I know what to do in a relationship... If you are already in that situation, it is hard to do the right thing because we are left clinging to the fantasy brought by the relationship... So how can you actually say that it is time to move on? When will be the time to let go?
For the 4 failed relationship, only one has a big influence in my life... the 2 failed relationships have the same reason, and the other is just because he is younger than me... The influential relationship to me has been gone for 5 years now and I can say that until now, I love him... I moved on and let go, but why does the feeling still exist? Maybe because I imagined myself with him for the rest of my life. Maybe because he was the one who changed my perception in life. Maybe because he sees me differently and he loves me unconditionally. Maybe because he accepted me for who I am and not for who I become... Everything ends up with a mystery as to why the feelings exist... The romance is gone, but is it really time to move on? What in this kind of situation, what would you do? Is it really time to move on?
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the one about childhood
Yesterday, I was staring at this kid and was trying to figure out what she was doing. She was holding a plastic with eggs in it and was gloomy. I tried to approach her and asked what was her problem, she then replied, "Nawala ko ung sukli ni sa pagbili ko ng itlog, 20 pesos yun, binalikan ko na ung tindahan pero wala naman silang nakita". I tried to cheer up the kid and was trying to hand over a 20 peso bill and I said that she can use the money so that she will not be reprimanded by her mother. You know what she told me, "Hindi ko po matatanggap yan, kasi po sa inyo yan, di niyo naman po ako kilala, di ko rin naman po kayo kilala, achaka, kung kukunin ko yan at ipapakita kay Mama, parang niloloko ko na nun siya, ayoko po nung ganon, siguro sasabihin ko na lang kay Mama ung totoo, alam ko naman na mapapatawad niya ako at magiging okay din lahat, mapapagalitan man ako, at least wala akong tinatago sa kanya" I got moved by the words of the kid and she suddenly said "Ang bait niyo naman ate, alam ko kailangan niyo rin yang pera, pero alam ko naman na mabait kayo, kaya kinakausap ko kayo, sabi kasi ni Mama, wag kakausap sa hindi kilala, Salamat po" I walked and then went home thinking of the words that the kid said.
I was thinking that when we were kids, all we ever think about is play, study, eat and have fun... There are no major problems that occur to us and we don't think of bills, expenses, payments and job... It was such a nice feeling to think of what you were when you were a little kid, going to school, go home, eat, play, study, watch TV, sleep and face another day with the same routine... It was always like that and we got tired of doing it, but now, all you ever wanted is to do the same all over again. We want to remove the worries in our hearts and just want to enjoy life. It will make us think clearly and see things clearly as well... Have you ever experienced that time when all you ever wanted is to go home, change your clothes, eat the food that you mom cooked for you, and then sleep the night away, without thinking of the things that happened in your day... How I wish that everyone can do this for us to think clearly and act the way we were supposed to...
Going back to the words of the kid, it made me think of relationships... The perception of the kid not wanting to deceive the parent is a striking sentence. Not wanting to hurt the feelings of the mother and removing the burden that might be with her for the rest of the day, how did she thought of that. I think that the kid was trying to tell me that I should be free from worry and accept everything that comes my way... It made me gain confidence that I can do it and everything will be fine in the end... Hope that kid will have the same perception in the coming years of her life...
With this, I will leave a question for the readers, have you ever been like the kid these past few days?
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I was thinking that when we were kids, all we ever think about is play, study, eat and have fun... There are no major problems that occur to us and we don't think of bills, expenses, payments and job... It was such a nice feeling to think of what you were when you were a little kid, going to school, go home, eat, play, study, watch TV, sleep and face another day with the same routine... It was always like that and we got tired of doing it, but now, all you ever wanted is to do the same all over again. We want to remove the worries in our hearts and just want to enjoy life. It will make us think clearly and see things clearly as well... Have you ever experienced that time when all you ever wanted is to go home, change your clothes, eat the food that you mom cooked for you, and then sleep the night away, without thinking of the things that happened in your day... How I wish that everyone can do this for us to think clearly and act the way we were supposed to...
Going back to the words of the kid, it made me think of relationships... The perception of the kid not wanting to deceive the parent is a striking sentence. Not wanting to hurt the feelings of the mother and removing the burden that might be with her for the rest of the day, how did she thought of that. I think that the kid was trying to tell me that I should be free from worry and accept everything that comes my way... It made me gain confidence that I can do it and everything will be fine in the end... Hope that kid will have the same perception in the coming years of her life...
With this, I will leave a question for the readers, have you ever been like the kid these past few days?
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the one about loneliness
Have you ever felt that you were longing for someone to share your life with? Have you ever dreamed that someday, someone will be able to accept you and be able to say that "this is the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with..." Have you ever experienced loving someone even though he or she doesn't love you as much as you do? Will you be able to conquer that feeling of rejection and be alone for the time being? Will you be able to say proudly that you loved him/her and it was not your lost, but his? Tell me have you been lonely?
I was trying to watch this series about a guy pretending to be gay for him to be with his love and it caught my attention. It made me think if there are still these kind of men that can actually do this for their love. I am not envious or being melodramatic. It is just that there are some things in this world that can be a fantasy turned reality and vice versa. It just made me think if I had experienced that kind. I have been in love for several times already and I know what it feels like to be loved and doing things for love, but do you think it's worth it? I have been in love for several times, but the efforts are not enough for the relationship to stay. I have been with a lot of men and I know that there would come a time that they will be looking for another person to share their life with. Maybe not all men are like this but I know that the men that I loved have all become like this.. (except for one, until now he doesn't have a girlfriend). But I am grateful to every one of them because they shared their feelings to me... I am not bitter, I would just like to thank them for making me who I am today, from the first to the last. Though right now I am single, I think this is what God wants me to be. Although I know that there would come a time that I will be looking for a companion to share my life with, I know that when the time comes He will give it to me. I am not looking for someone right now, all I wanted to do right now is to set things straight and enjoy the moments while I can. Though I am alone and lonely, I know that there would come a time that someone will be filling in my loneliness... I know, I believe and I will have faith.
Again, I am not being melodramatic and all, but I just wanted to say that sometimes being alone and lonely will fill you up and you will be satisfied with the end results. It doesn't hurt to relax, meditate and feel the silence in your hearts. Time will come, you will be looking for that moment where you should have not disregarded the silence and loneliness because you need to search for yourself again
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I was trying to watch this series about a guy pretending to be gay for him to be with his love and it caught my attention. It made me think if there are still these kind of men that can actually do this for their love. I am not envious or being melodramatic. It is just that there are some things in this world that can be a fantasy turned reality and vice versa. It just made me think if I had experienced that kind. I have been in love for several times already and I know what it feels like to be loved and doing things for love, but do you think it's worth it? I have been in love for several times, but the efforts are not enough for the relationship to stay. I have been with a lot of men and I know that there would come a time that they will be looking for another person to share their life with. Maybe not all men are like this but I know that the men that I loved have all become like this.. (except for one, until now he doesn't have a girlfriend). But I am grateful to every one of them because they shared their feelings to me... I am not bitter, I would just like to thank them for making me who I am today, from the first to the last. Though right now I am single, I think this is what God wants me to be. Although I know that there would come a time that I will be looking for a companion to share my life with, I know that when the time comes He will give it to me. I am not looking for someone right now, all I wanted to do right now is to set things straight and enjoy the moments while I can. Though I am alone and lonely, I know that there would come a time that someone will be filling in my loneliness... I know, I believe and I will have faith.
Again, I am not being melodramatic and all, but I just wanted to say that sometimes being alone and lonely will fill you up and you will be satisfied with the end results. It doesn't hurt to relax, meditate and feel the silence in your hearts. Time will come, you will be looking for that moment where you should have not disregarded the silence and loneliness because you need to search for yourself again
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the one with the nice wake up call
Isn't it a nice feeling to wake up in the morning with a smile on your face and someone who will make that smile more wide? It was such a nice feeling, that it will make your day happy, as if nothing will go wrong. I haven't felt this nice since the day I was with my family.. This feeling makes me smile and work with no regrets... It makes me feel loved.. It makes me feel that eventhough I only have a few friends, I know that they are still there... Whatever happens, everything is in place.. eventhough problems occur and challenges will come, we all are the captain of our own ships...
the one with annoyance
There will always come a time that everyone will feel annoyance and irritation.. I know that everyone hates it when they are annoyed but for me, I cannot help but shout and let the feeling go away. I really hate it when I hear something that would make me feel annoyed and all I wanted to do is to go out on my own and just be alone.. I know that friends will always be there to cheer you up but right now, I am deprived of friends... I needed time to think and try to reorganize again myself but I cannot do that if I will be here... I need sometime to be myself and be alone... Hope that I will be able to do that before I lose insanity...
TTKD 2010
Well, I may have not started the note with "the one with..." but I would just like to share all of my memories with the said event... Tigtigan Terakan King Dalan is a street party in Angeles City which happens every last Friday and Saturday of October. It is one of the highlights of the city's twin fiestas... La Naval and Feast of the Apung Mamacalulu... This event has gauge the strength of Angelenos way back the time that the Mount Pinatubo has erupted and the Clark Air Base has been withdrawn. This has been a symbolic event for the Angelenos as this makes them remember how Angeles City has stood up in times of the crisis that had happened that time. Enough with history...
I was Grade 6 when I started going in TTKD... I am with my brother and we just walk around the street. They drink and I just look... After that, I never missed the chance of going to TTKD. Last year was the first one that I didn't attend... I was in Manila then and was working... NOw, I do not know as to why I am not going again... LOL
There has been a lot of memories that happened in TTKD, from the time that I was with my ex boyfriends, then with my college friends, then when we were advertising the modelling event, then with call center colleagues and I believe that was the last. The most memorable perhaps would be with my brother and my friend and we were just there all morning until they are cleaning the streets already. I also remember witnessing an accident from a drunk driver and got one tricycle driver limping... Also another memory was when I was with my ex boyfriend and his friends doesn't know I am smoking and we tried to keep it, but I can't and then one of my suitors just went to our place and talked to me. I don't know what to do then... There are simply lots of things to remember when TTKD comes every year.
But right now, though I still enjoy the bands and the drinking, I think I leave the fun to those who enjoys crowded places. I don't know why, but I don't think I fit there anymore.. I think it's time for me to move on with how I enjoy my time here on earth and leave the old habits to those who in one way or the other, would also be able to see what I see now...
Nonetheless, if someone invited me, then I might come, LOL, but 95% of me, just wants to stay home and rest....
ENJOY TTKD GUYS!!!
I was Grade 6 when I started going in TTKD... I am with my brother and we just walk around the street. They drink and I just look... After that, I never missed the chance of going to TTKD. Last year was the first one that I didn't attend... I was in Manila then and was working... NOw, I do not know as to why I am not going again... LOL
There has been a lot of memories that happened in TTKD, from the time that I was with my ex boyfriends, then with my college friends, then when we were advertising the modelling event, then with call center colleagues and I believe that was the last. The most memorable perhaps would be with my brother and my friend and we were just there all morning until they are cleaning the streets already. I also remember witnessing an accident from a drunk driver and got one tricycle driver limping... Also another memory was when I was with my ex boyfriend and his friends doesn't know I am smoking and we tried to keep it, but I can't and then one of my suitors just went to our place and talked to me. I don't know what to do then... There are simply lots of things to remember when TTKD comes every year.
But right now, though I still enjoy the bands and the drinking, I think I leave the fun to those who enjoys crowded places. I don't know why, but I don't think I fit there anymore.. I think it's time for me to move on with how I enjoy my time here on earth and leave the old habits to those who in one way or the other, would also be able to see what I see now...
Nonetheless, if someone invited me, then I might come, LOL, but 95% of me, just wants to stay home and rest....
ENJOY TTKD GUYS!!!
the one where we recall our blessings
Sometimes the world will throw all the trials to you when you are at your depressed times... But whatever the case, you have to face the fact that the trials need to be accepted and go through with them... That was the time that I realized that for 2 years, I have been friends with an amazing guy and he never fails to cheer me up when I am down, encourage me to take risks and dreaming is the only thing that can make you feel fulfilled.. Yesterday, we were talking about how we would be going through the challenge that will come on our way... He shares it with his wife and I was there happy for him... Though I have to admit, there was a little jealousy i felt when he was talking to her but what the heck, I know that there will come a time that I will be able to find my better half and will be able to share my moment with him... Recalling on the things that happened and how we surpass all those trials have made me think that I have become stronger... I know that life can fuck on you but you have to appreciate the nice feeling in it... (Sounds weird but it's true) I may have been a bitch for the longest period of time but I have been a better bitch now... I know that life will be able to appreciate the bitch in me... I know I can....
Looking back on the 24 months of being a friend to this guy has made him love his wife more, appreciate her more and respect her more... He has been the guy that when he is pissed off, he will fight but now, he tends to understand the things and make the most out of it to be sweet again to his wife... I know I have had that part of him awaken and he knows that I will always be there for him, no matter what situation we have...
I am very thankful that he has been a huge part in my life as well... And as we recalled the things we have done and influenced each other, no one can remove that nice smile that we have on our faces...
Looking back on the 24 months of being a friend to this guy has made him love his wife more, appreciate her more and respect her more... He has been the guy that when he is pissed off, he will fight but now, he tends to understand the things and make the most out of it to be sweet again to his wife... I know I have had that part of him awaken and he knows that I will always be there for him, no matter what situation we have...
I am very thankful that he has been a huge part in my life as well... And as we recalled the things we have done and influenced each other, no one can remove that nice smile that we have on our faces...
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Writing and Taking Risks
It is yet again a cold and lazy evening... Power interruption has been ongoing for hours now and yet again, I am thinking of things... Yesterday, I was reading the book of Bob Ong, Stainless Longannisa, it was my first time reading it and got hooked up by the book, it was just about his journey of being a writer. I once dreamed of being a writer as well, but unfortunately it didn't push through... I like writing my opinions and my feelings but I think it just ends there... I have written a short story when I was in my high school years and some of my friends who read it tells me that the story was good and that I can be a great writer (now i don't know where the heck that notebook was!).... I guess being a writer will never happen.... Going back to the book, Bob Ong has had his doubts and fears when he tried to do his first manuscript, to meet the deadlines, to publish the book and if it will be supported by the public, but he took the risk and now he had a lot of books published that became an inspiration to the youth... That made me think that even the most successful people had their chance of fear and desperation... Though that odds are not seen, they are still human beings... This made me realized that everyone needs to take risk in order to be happy... and everyone can be successful whether you are in an agonizing situation, it is just a matter of perception and wit... That made me think that I am indeed a blessed person....
Monday, October 18, 2010
Start of a new journey
It was a cold evening last night and the electricity has been gone for several hours... I couldn't sleep and my body is still active... Amidst the cold and very lazy ambiance, I am very much awake and imagining things... Then when the electricity is back, I tried to look at my FB account and saw the pictures of 2 of the longest couple I know got married and had their shots taken before the wedding... I was thinking that life can be so patient when you have the reason to be patient... And it gives you meaningful outcome in life... Then it made me realize one thing, I have to move on and accept the things that come my way for me to enjoy life....
I have posted this shoutout on my FB page: "i have to let go, move on, settle things, start again, stop the madness, be happy for others, forgive, swallow my pride, learn from mistakes and enjoy life" I really don't know what occurred in my mind but something tells me that I have to do all these things... If given a chance I would like to do these all alone without the help of someone... But I guess, I will never be able to accomplish it... lol...
1. I have to let go and move on
>> Seeing the things happening to me right now, with the imagination to reality, I have to say that I definitely need to move on... I am still trapped in imagining things that could have happened 2 years ago... I am still imagining the wedding that was supposed to happen, the things that we planned together, the endless drinking sessions with our friends... Yes, I am still imagining, what could have happened if I got married 2 years ago, will I be in this situation right now? Apparently not... For the reality, it is quite obvious that I really need to let go, for the same reason that I have been writing for my previous blogs...
2. I need to settle things
>> This part is quite a broad statement... I need to settle my bills, my debts and my misunderstandings with closest friends... I just need to settle them once and for all for my peace of mind, so that I can finally move on without a burden in my heart...
3. I have to start again and stop the madness
>> This is somewhat kinda the same with the first one... I need to start again from scratch... I love again myself more... I need to hear myself out and be myself again... I need to have sometime alone and analyze the things that happened to me in the past years...
4. I have to be happy for others
>> Sometimes, I can't help but get envious with others who found their happiness... I actually love seeing my friends being happy, but sometimes I wonder why am I not that happy? Maybe because I am so envious with them that I pull myself down... I know I need to be happy for them and enjoy what I have to be happy as well... Life can be so joyful, if you found the joy with what you have and do... Start to look on the positive side of things and the feeling will be as fulfilling as ever...
5. I have to forgive and swallow my pride
>> I have been out of our home for about 2 years now.. I know that it is very stressful and alone... Sometimes I think why did I left home only to find out that I had a misunderstanding with my mom... I go home once in a while but when I go home, I still find ways not be home all the time... I don't know why, but maybe I have found the meaning of "independence" but in the end, I know and feel that I need to be home to start my life again
6. I have to learn from mistakes and enjoy life
>> This pretty much defines what I feel right now... I have to think of all the mistakes that I did in the past and try to look for the lessons I learned, what did these mistakes did to me to become a better person? Did i became a better person? Sometimes I think that I changed, sometimes I think I am still the same, but whatever it is, I know that I am not the same person like I was yesterday, and yesterday became my past, whatever it is that happened yesterday can be forgotten, or it can be remembered, but nonetheless, I am not the same person, because everyday has given you the chance to know a bit more of life...
As the night goes by last night, I didn't realize that the time has ticked so fast... it was morning already and I am still thinking of that wedding... hahaha... talk about moving on... But I know that this realization that I have, it will make me grow a better person in me...
I have posted this shoutout on my FB page: "i have to let go, move on, settle things, start again, stop the madness, be happy for others, forgive, swallow my pride, learn from mistakes and enjoy life" I really don't know what occurred in my mind but something tells me that I have to do all these things... If given a chance I would like to do these all alone without the help of someone... But I guess, I will never be able to accomplish it... lol...
1. I have to let go and move on
>> Seeing the things happening to me right now, with the imagination to reality, I have to say that I definitely need to move on... I am still trapped in imagining things that could have happened 2 years ago... I am still imagining the wedding that was supposed to happen, the things that we planned together, the endless drinking sessions with our friends... Yes, I am still imagining, what could have happened if I got married 2 years ago, will I be in this situation right now? Apparently not... For the reality, it is quite obvious that I really need to let go, for the same reason that I have been writing for my previous blogs...
2. I need to settle things
>> This part is quite a broad statement... I need to settle my bills, my debts and my misunderstandings with closest friends... I just need to settle them once and for all for my peace of mind, so that I can finally move on without a burden in my heart...
3. I have to start again and stop the madness
>> This is somewhat kinda the same with the first one... I need to start again from scratch... I love again myself more... I need to hear myself out and be myself again... I need to have sometime alone and analyze the things that happened to me in the past years...
4. I have to be happy for others
>> Sometimes, I can't help but get envious with others who found their happiness... I actually love seeing my friends being happy, but sometimes I wonder why am I not that happy? Maybe because I am so envious with them that I pull myself down... I know I need to be happy for them and enjoy what I have to be happy as well... Life can be so joyful, if you found the joy with what you have and do... Start to look on the positive side of things and the feeling will be as fulfilling as ever...
5. I have to forgive and swallow my pride
>> I have been out of our home for about 2 years now.. I know that it is very stressful and alone... Sometimes I think why did I left home only to find out that I had a misunderstanding with my mom... I go home once in a while but when I go home, I still find ways not be home all the time... I don't know why, but maybe I have found the meaning of "independence" but in the end, I know and feel that I need to be home to start my life again
6. I have to learn from mistakes and enjoy life
>> This pretty much defines what I feel right now... I have to think of all the mistakes that I did in the past and try to look for the lessons I learned, what did these mistakes did to me to become a better person? Did i became a better person? Sometimes I think that I changed, sometimes I think I am still the same, but whatever it is, I know that I am not the same person like I was yesterday, and yesterday became my past, whatever it is that happened yesterday can be forgotten, or it can be remembered, but nonetheless, I am not the same person, because everyday has given you the chance to know a bit more of life...
As the night goes by last night, I didn't realize that the time has ticked so fast... it was morning already and I am still thinking of that wedding... hahaha... talk about moving on... But I know that this realization that I have, it will make me grow a better person in me...
Thursday, October 07, 2010
Justice for the victim
It was a shock to everyone who has heard the news... There is one call center agent who got beheaded on one of the motels here in Angeles City. There are several stories that emerged but the mere fact that up until now, the head is nowhere to be found... There are sayings that the girl is asking for a break up to the boyfriend who she found out is married... There are those who said that the girl checked in with two men with her... The suspect said that he was at work when the incident happened.. There are several things that evolved and there are things in which this could have not happened... Here are some of my opinions about the matter...
The break up
>>>The girl is a victim. She was deceived that the man she loved is a single lad but eventually, she found out that he is married. OPINION: Why did the guy look for another companion if he was married? If he is not happy with the marriage, why would he be married? I know that I don't sound convincing on this one but I really don't get the point of falling in love with someone when you are committed to other person...
The alibi:
>>> The suspect said that he is at work when the tragedy was done. If he was telling the truth, why not ask the company he works with for the CCTV footage and the proximity card logs. I know that the company uses this when there were several occasions of robbery and theft in the company premises... Why not help the victim for the crime to be solved...
The witnesses
>>> the witnesses should tell everything that they remember... I know that it will be hard for them since we don't know the background of the suspect but for the sake of clearing and the resting of the soul of the victim. All angles should be heard by the police in order for this crime to be solved....
I know that right now, the city government has been struggling to provide peace, safety and harmony in the city... I know that the current administration of the city has been faced with many trials due to the fact that the previous administration has lost the race... I am not against the former administration but I have seen the difference in our city from his time up till now... Let's help each other and bring back the beauty of this city...
The break up
>>>The girl is a victim. She was deceived that the man she loved is a single lad but eventually, she found out that he is married. OPINION: Why did the guy look for another companion if he was married? If he is not happy with the marriage, why would he be married? I know that I don't sound convincing on this one but I really don't get the point of falling in love with someone when you are committed to other person...
The alibi:
>>> The suspect said that he is at work when the tragedy was done. If he was telling the truth, why not ask the company he works with for the CCTV footage and the proximity card logs. I know that the company uses this when there were several occasions of robbery and theft in the company premises... Why not help the victim for the crime to be solved...
The witnesses
>>> the witnesses should tell everything that they remember... I know that it will be hard for them since we don't know the background of the suspect but for the sake of clearing and the resting of the soul of the victim. All angles should be heard by the police in order for this crime to be solved....
I know that right now, the city government has been struggling to provide peace, safety and harmony in the city... I know that the current administration of the city has been faced with many trials due to the fact that the previous administration has lost the race... I am not against the former administration but I have seen the difference in our city from his time up till now... Let's help each other and bring back the beauty of this city...
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